Wishes for this day

I wish that it were easier, that this life didn't hurt so much.

I wish that I could sleep instead of having this heavy sickness in the mouth of my stomach.

I wish that I could slip through this world unnoticed, untouched, unscathed and that I would never, ever be the cause of pain.

I wish I could go back and have a do-over.

I wish that talking about it made it better.

I wish that it didn't have to be this way.

I wish that comfort were enough.

I wish that I didn't care so much, still.

I am full of wish, I know, I wish I didn't need so much, to wish so much, to ache so much for everything that I have and everything I have lost, gone forever, my innocence.